i don’t shy away from my emotions when i write.
and as I grew older, it seemed I started to not shy away from them in real life either.
there will be times I feel like if I don’t say something, I’ll burst. and maybe it’s kinda true as the times I did let the bottle get full it felt like the cap popped off and everything came tumbling out.
I don’t think I wear my heart on my sleeve. I think I’ve ripped it out of my chest and presented it on a platter. You can’t hide such mess.
but I’ve learned to love it.
I rather feel the rollercoaster of my emotions than to pretend I’m unaffected. I don’t leave myself questioning, I don’t play mind games. I allow this sense of vulnerability to exist within me because that’s what I would want from the world.
sometimes I feel like I’m going insane
but don’t all the best artists do?
the need to express yourself isn’t compatible with the want to be understood.
no one actually likes crazy
unless they can benefit from it. because it’s too real.
and it forces others to look at themselves in a light they haven’t before.
I don’t know why loving hard seems so embarrassing. Why do we feel as if it’s embarrassing to try or to care?
I’m the type where I might bring up a conversation from a week ago if I feel like I still have something to add to it. I’ll tell you how your actions made me feel even if it feels like I’m choking doing so. I communicate for clarification because I don’t want to fill in the gaps in my head. My imagination is massive so I will do it and use it to move on.
and I will always be too much for some people. and people will make you feel crazy.
but I rather be much than to live so hollow in my skin. and i’ll choose crazy if it means expressing my love, pain and joy!
A girl once told me she only allows herself three regrets a year.
So she must live as truthfully to herself as she can even if it means it won’t be well received. And of course, we want our feelings to be well received and reciprocated because we’re only human. We want to feel seen and not judged by it. We want to be understood without having to shapeshift to be more digestible. But once we act based on how we feel and not the reception are we set free.
I think when we express ourselves in our honest form, it filters people out. There will be many who will leave. But it doesn’t matter because there will be the few who will stay and few you will even attract, and those are the ones you don’t need to pretend in front of.
I don’t believe in reserving my care and love. I’m not waiting for the perfect time or person before I can show who I am anymore.
Neither will I be wasting my time on those who don’t treat me as I deserve.
I don’t do nonchalant.
Give me the dramatise and the extraness, we will worry about the logic later!
feed into your delusion!
the promises of life isn’t secured so why abide by so?
is it crazy to believe in yourself? there are times it will feel like that
but once you allow yourself to fully lean into it
not waiting for anyone or anything,
addressing what has been tugging your heart,
you can get closer to being you. asserting yourself. living truly.
and i think that could make you a bit happier.
